My Perfectly F'd up Life

        I must say, my life has gotten so much better since we started off with the first blog post lol! And it's not because my problems have gone away surprisingly. The worry has gone away in lieu of the work being done. I have developed routines like getting up earlier, starting back up journaling, scripting using large poster boards, getting back in the gym and dropping the worry of what people think of me. I must say I feel a bit free and it feels blissful.

          Re-establishing my relationship with God was the pre-face for my new found peace and freedom. I get up daily and give God time by reading from a bible app that I have on my phone. Afterwards I meditate on the word and share whatever God has called me to share with others. I can no longer run from the calling of being "one of them ones" lol! Literally, my obedience to God is what has me in a new found space. God will reveal your purpose through your obedience.  I'm so happy I took the time at this point in my life to reconnect. Now i'm not saying im a first lady or the holiest bc I still cuss a lil nih! God is still working on me!. However I implore you not to focus on the messenger when God is delivering you a message that can save your life. God will use you at your lowest. NEVER be afraid to share your story or be brave and live in your truth! When you bare it all you leave no room for anything to be exposed honey! Share and express yourself the way you see fit!  Others are human just like you, what can they do to you besides gossip and hide in their own shadows? ok then! 

                I am learning on this journey that the problems never stop so you have to ask God to build you up to be able to handle them as they come and equip you with the tools to resolve and keep moving! Live life! Don't let your problems take the front seat when you're the one driving baby. Get you some hobbies, develop a routine, practice self care, start working on you're business again,  GET BACK TO YOU! Don't let life pass you by trying to get it right. It will never be fully "right" according to your comparisons. It's up to you to create that 'perfect life' even if it's a lil f'd up lol!