My Perfectly F'd up Life.

I am finally ok with admitting I AM NOT OK. As a life long people pleaser and tiptoer just getting to this point feels damn good! I am finally ok with the break down and the stripping that is happening in my life. I am finally ok with being uncomfortable to get to the promise that God has for me. I must admit it's hard when you want to be a victim, whine, and hide but life is really forcing you to boss up and step up to the plate. Ironically typing this feels amazing. Admitting that I feel like a failure. Admitting that I feel defeated, worthless, and like my time has passed. It needs to come out. I need to feel it for it be real and for me to fully grasp it and start moving forward. I am in pain spiritually because God has me in a waiting room. I can see the promises and the win on the other side but Gods timing not mine. Putting in the work is rough. Learning new ways and doing things different is scary but it's a must. while I am sad that I have to let go of my past I am more excited about my future. It's raining as I am typing this and I feel that God is washing away the humiliation of becoming a single parent, feeling like I am failing as a parent, a failed relationship, a failed business. This is a sign of God's plan and a new beginning. Some of you may be asking why doesn't she get a journal lol! To answer your question is because I know that it's so many women who are in the same space who need to know that it's someone who can relate. Someone to tell them that it's ok to start over, someone to tell them it's ok to not be ok. Well God has appointed me to be that person for you. The mask is coming off. We are healing, we are succeeding, we are loving and LIVING. Join me here weekly to cover different topics while I navigate this healing journey! A wild ride you are in for but you will not regret it. Let's go back to the top sis!